No matter how tragic an event is which has transpired in your own life, the sobering fact is life still moves on. It might seem unfair or even make you downright angry at times, but laundry, bills and peoples general lack of concern may still occur. My thoughts turn toward our neighbors, who I like to think are generally good people. Through no fault of their own, they have no idea what is going on with us and even if they had saw us leave with a suitcase they would have thought nothing of us returning home a day later suitcase in hand. They would most likely would think we went on a little getaway and not that we had just left our heart at the hospital.
The thing about life changing events is that you yourself are a changed person, but people around you are not. Cameron and I believe trials (if we allow them to) can make us stronger. Through this I feel a greater resolve to be more compassionate to the rude person at the grocery store or the angry driver flicking us off. I guess the hardest part is you never know what burdens people are carrying or how heavy their heart may be. I know this because now I am that person; the person who cries while eating soup at a restaurant, reading a menu or just walking down the street.
Fall is my absolute favorite time of year and I have no doubt the timing of it all was part of God's master plan. Nothing brings me more peace or makes me feel closer to my creator than a walk on a leaf strewn path or all these beautiful blue skied days we have been experiencing. I know more than ever that everything occurs for a reason.
This is a church hymn which has repeatedly come to mind over the past week:
I feel my Savior’s love,
In all the world around me
His Spirit warms my soul
Through everything I see
I feel my Savior’s love
Its gentleness enfolds me
And when I kneel to pray
My heart is filled with peace
He knows I will follow Him,
Give all my life to Him
I feel my Savior’s love
The love He freely gives me
I feel my Savior’s love
And know that He will bless me
I offer Him my heart;
My shepherd He will be
He knows I will follow Him,
Give all my life to Him
I feel my Savior’s love,
The love He freely gives me
I’ll share my Savior’s love
By serving others freely,
In serving I am blessed,
In giving I receive
He knows I will follow Him,
Give all my life to Him
I feel my Savior’s love,
The love He freely gives me
2 comments:
thank you for the reminder to be more conscientious of those around us. I also have found the most difficult part after a trial is that trivial things continue to march on and it's maddening. You just want the world to stop for one minute and acknowledge the loss.
That is also one of my favorite church songs. I sing that to Immy almost every night. It's beautiful that you so fully recognize the tender mercies in your life.
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